some weeks, some days, some hours, some minutes…. are easier than others. on these days that i am so ill that all i do is lie under the symptoms, it can be so hard to endure. & being so alone is so hard as well. i have so little human contact. sometimes, even if i can’t talk, it would be so nice to have someone sit with me. it’s impossible to describe what ME is like & what it is like to belong to no one. every day i give thanks for the few people who have remained in my life. & who help me to survive by providing basic needs like food. & pay the bills. & take me to doctor’s appointments.
my dog has been gone all week as well with her no longer new family. i miss her. & that’s hard, but i am grateful i have her when they are at work. just having another living being in the house helps me.
now i head back into nothingness as i get ready for bed. bow my head. give thanks for another day. & another night. on this earth. amen.
“just make us be brave, make us play nice, let us be together tonight…”